Nicole says she still loves Cruise

New York: Hollywood actress Nicole Kidman says her divorce from actor Tom Cruise was a "major shock" but, she still loves him.

"That was a major shock," the 38-year-old actress said in an interview in the June issue of Ladies' Home Journal, which has hit the newsstands.

"He was huge; still is. To me, he was just Tom, but to everybody else, he is huge. But he was lovely to me. I loved him and I still love him," she told the magazine.

Cruise filed for divorce in February 2001 after 10 years of marriage, citing irreconcilable differences. The divorce was finalised later that year.

"I always knew the rug was going to be pulled from underneath me at some stage," Kidman said. "I didn't think it was going to happen in the way it happened. I knew I was going to get hit with something. But, I think a divorce, and the demise of what your family is, is a little death in itself."

Cruise and Kidman adopted two children, Isabella, now 13, and Connor, now 11.

"I feel enormous love for whoever my children's birth parents are," Kidman said. "And if my children choose to go find them at some stage, I can't wait. Because — it's the weirdest thing — I actually feel (they're) very connected to us as a big, strange family, and whether they choose to search for them or not, who knows."

Kidman, who stars in the upcoming Fur, about photographer Diane Arbus, is reportedly dating country singer Keith Urban.